Day 3- Not Really

Hello my little Mad Hatters! It's been a few weeks, hasn't it? Gomen nasai! I've been a bit lazy, haven't I? As an apology, I'll kick things up with my favorite little songs. I'm sure everyone has heard of Evanescence, and if you haven't, you're living in a sad, sad world, my nakama.

Evanescence - Going Under

Evanescence - Bring Me To Life

Just go ahead and enjoy those.

Anywho, how are you? Haha, sorry, I couldn't resist the rhyme. But seriously, how are you guys? No problems? Everything's good? I worry about you, ya know. I don't need anybody going bat-shit crazy on me. Let me know if you have a problem, and I promise I'll help.

I think I'm goth guys. I've never really acknowledged my style till 'bout a week ago, when a little girl wearing a pink dress (gag) asked me why I wore so much black. Of course, my mom says it's just a phase. Um, how about no? And whats the difference between goth, emo, and punk? I know punk was first, and then goth, then emo. Goth and emo sorta branched off from punk. Wired right? I bet there was a ton of you  who didn't know.

Whatever. I am so sick of the world. First my bitch of an ex-stepfather, now this moving thing I have to do, I have reports, just finished testing, I'm blacked out guys. I'm not getting enough sleep either, not going to bed till like, 3 or 4 in the morning. No joke! So now on top of being goth, I'm now nocturnal. Just bloody fantabulous.

I think everybody knows why I have this blog. To rant and rave to the internet, even though I'm 100% sure that nobody is reading. That suits me just fine. I really don't expect anyone to read this. Do whatever the hell you want. Goths, Emos, Punks, Skaters, Gay peeps, Loners, Anti-Social bastards (like myself), Permanent Halloween peeps (though I call it Samhain), Wiccans, my fellow people of the night, you are welcome here.

I feel like such a complex individual. I'm totally an otaku, but with no friends. I model my life after 'The Addams Family' for Pete's sake! How do I deal with the world? Can anyone tell me this? What should I do? I'm so bored that by now I'm just waiting for Death. Hopefully that won't come till I'm like, 80 though.

8 is such a perfect number. Its my favorite. The reason being that 8 is the only perfectly symmetrical number in the world. And don't you dare mention 0, it doesn't count. You can divide 8 vertically and horizontally, and by two, and still get a perfect number. I hate even numbers, especially 4. Reason. The Japanese word for 4, shi, means death. Even though I like Death, and await its call for me, I still hate 4 with a passion. But that's just me.

I might have AHDH.

Well, my little mad hatters, we have nothing else to say to day!

Goodbye,

-Cheshire Kat

Welcome to my nightmare.

Day 2- A New Development

Hello again, my little Mad Hatters. Its Cheshire (obviously). So some new things have happened. I got registered for high school (woo), found out that I'm allergic to cottonseed (no more Girl Scout Thin Mints, sigh), and I've met a rapist! This has been a fun day, right? WRONG! So now I can't eat my favorite cookies or I'll swell like a balloon, I find that a known rapist lives a couple houses away from me, and I have to deal with my mom crying that "Her little baby is going to high school!" Apparently nobody told me to grow up.

On the plus side, I guess that I'm really smart. Honors english, honors biology, and honors math. Aren't I just a little prodigy? Of course, this means that my summer is now devoted to three projects, one for each class. There's a diary entry and a paper due for english, a months worth of summer classes for biology, and a stack of math algorithms with my name on it. My two months off just became summer school.

Ah well, I guess I can't have everything go perfectly. I also have to babysit the little cousin, but at least I get paid for that. $10 an hour isn't so bad, right? This is like, my first job. I have to babysit the little siblings too, but I don't get paid for that. Sigh, I guess I should get a jump start on my homework.

Oh yeah, we should share interest. Well, I like pretty much everything Japanese. It's my dream to go to Japan and become a video game designer there. I could work with Akihabara! Some things about me... I like reading. I like staying in the background, in the shadows. I can get pretty dramatic. I've never had a boyfriend, probably because none of the real boys are as good as the one's in an anime. That and on the pretty scale, I'd give myself a 6. Maybe a 7 in certain lights. I've never been a popular girl, never really been to a party, I don't get invited to do anything. I'm an ok singer, I guess. I like dark, twisted stuff, but never show me a good horror movie. I will pee in my pants. Like when I saw World War Z.

I like stuff like, zombies. Even though they scare me to high Heaven, I have an awesome zombie plan. I also like yaoi, also called boys' love. It is adorable! I'm watching 'Junjo Romantica' right now, then I'll compare it to 'Sekai-Ichi Hatsukoi'. Both of them are just too cute! Makes me want a gay best friend. I am happy to say that I am a fangirl, and proud of it!

If any of you ever need a good anime referral, I am your girl! For a weird one, but not unpleasant, check out 'Tsuritama'. I swear, I have memorized that opening dance! Of course, if you're a fellow yaoi fan, check out FuzzyBunnyChan's blog. I love you Risa! ~^_^~

Hmm, what else should I write about today. I guess I could go with my specific reasons for wanting to start this blog in the first place. As stated in day 1, I want to help all the other freaks like me. I also want a place where I can just write my feelings and junk. I had a diary, but my stupid big brother read it. So now, under my alias Cheshire, I have a secure place to write about my junk. Thank God for the internet!


All right all my little Mad Hatters, its time to go now. See ya tomorrow!

-Cheshire Kat

Welcome to my Hell

Day 1- Welcome to my bitch-fest.

 Hello people who are reading this for some reason. My name is Cheshire, and welcome to my bitch-fest. This is the place where I'll post all my thoughts and likes. Let's get to know each other! First off, if you dislike yuri and yaoi, (that is to say, same-sex relationships), you can get the hell out now. I am an otaku people, and I have nothing against people loving each other, regardless of gender. And, for all you people wondering, I am not a creepy old man who sits in front of a computer all day. I am a creepy young teenage girl who sits in front of a computer all day.

Oh yeah, we were getting to know each other, right? Well, I'm a teenager, and goth. I'm also Christian you stereotypical bastards. Oh yeah, and I have a potty-mouth. Not gonna keep it pg in here kids! Now, I'm the type of person who stays in the background. Gothic, not-so-popular, book-worm, these are a few words to describe me. Another few would be otaku (anime/manga nerd), dreamer, anti-social, etc. I've obviously never had a boyfriend, but I give awesome relationship advice.

I want my blog to be a place where I can let off steam, but also help people who are different, like me. If you're gay or lesbian, bullied for whatever reason, even if you want to like, kill yourself, I hope my blog can be a place you can turn to. I want to help you, and in turn, help myself. My personality on my blog is totally different compared to irl (in real life). That's gamer talk right there. Welcome to all of my fellow freaks, geeks, and losers! And yes, I've been called all of these things. If you hadn't noticed already, I tend to stay on the darker path of life.

Now this is just my personality. I am a Christian, as previously stated. I must say that I want to go to Heaven, but if you're a different religion, or have none at all, I'm cool with that. I don't want to change anybody. I think we're all beautiful and perfect just as we are, and "normal" people will just have to get used to that.

Now let us talk about the mysteries of the universe. I believe that there are an infinite number of universe's and realities. I would love to get off of planet Earth. It's just so boring here sometimes, you know? I want to go to a place of mysterious powers and abilities, of wondrous creatures and vegetation, somewhere right out of a fantasy novel.

Hence, why I'm here.

I'm here to find people who think the same as I do. People that I can relate to. This blog holds my sanity, my dreams and realities. This blog is my lifeline. I just hope that I can save someone, like I'm being saved right now. I'm saving myself by writing this blog. I don't even care if no one reads it. All that matters is knowing that I have something to call my own. This blog is the only thing that I can have close to my heart.

OK, I just got way to sappy. I hope that that moment of weakness is gone now. Nope, it's not. I can still feel the pain in my chest, the burn behind my eyes. Whatever, this is too many emotions. I'm not used to this yet. What a pain.

All right, day 1 is done now. Goodnight, all my little Mad Hatters. We'll get more into my interest next time. Bye-bee!

-Cheshire Kat

Welcome to my Hell.